My name is Melissa and I have a problem……I keep myself WAY too busy!! There I have said it, out loud and online for everyone to read. I like to keep myself busy, but lately it seems I have been riding a hamster wheel that just keeps getting faster and it is really starting to take its toll on me. So when I say I like to keep myself busy, I even mean when I’m trying to relax; for example when I sit down to watch a movie with my husband I have to be doing something to keep my hands busy, whether it is prepping for a card class, putting a stamp set together, writing a post for either my stamping blog or OVM or even knitting…..I need to multi-task! Lately though, I find myself saying, ‘I just need to get through the next weekend, or the next event, and then I can relax’ but that time comes and goes and my down-time has become non-existent! Why do I keep doing this to myself???
I come by this need to be busy honestly…..my Mom, my Nan, my Aunt they are all the same way! Is this a gene that you inherit?? I have a hard time saying ‘No’ and I never want to miss out on a family event or get together with friends, however I am finally realizing (after all these years) that I have to start saying that ‘No’ word, and that I can’t be at every get together. For me this is easier said than done as I normally say this when I hit that wall of exhaustion, lay low for a little while and then start the cycle all over. I am in constant search for balance and how to be better organized and more efficient with my time, and as I start to think of starting a family in the near future it makes me think……how do women do it? How do you spend time with your family, work, see your friends, persue what you are passionate about and ensure you get in some ‘me’ time? Will I be able to do this once children are in the picture when I can’t even do that now? This alone has me scared and questioning my ability to be a Mom as I know I will want to be a hands on parent.
I would love to hear your thoughts…..do you feel like you are living in a hamster wheel? Were you in a similar situation before having kids and how did you manage the transition? Is this a normal fear you had before you started a family? Lastly do you have any tips on how you organize your busy life?