Yup, I’m admitting it! I am turning the BIG 3-0 TODAY!!!! It’s my birthday, and it is crazy to think that I am no longer in my 20′s!! I am now THIRTY!! I remember when I turned 19, it was a huge thing for me! Now, here I am, 11 years later. I always thought that I wouldn’t ever really be proud to say I was 30. I am totally that girl when wishing a Happy Birthday to a friend on Facebook, saying “Happy 25th!!” no matter what the age really is!
To be honest, it really hasn’t been that big of a deal at all! It is really only another number just like everyone always says it is! We are only as old as we feel…yadda yadda yadda! But it is funny cause a lot of times, in my minds eye, I still think of myself as a teenager – a 19 year old starting her life and thinking that I can’t keep up with this fast moving world! Telling myself things will be different ”when I grow up!” Which, Hello Self….you’re kinda there! lol :S
What this milestone has also got me doing is reflecting back on my life. What I have done the first 30 years of my life. I have had a lot of hardships, but I have had so many great great times, and so many wonderful people to share them all with. My greatest accomplishments of course are my two beautiful children who keep me on my toes each and every day since entering my life. As well as being a wife, partner and friend to my high school sweetheart.
It also has me thinking a lot of my own Mom lately. She was only 36 when she was taken from us, and it is a little unnerving to me to think that I am quickly approaching the age when she left this earth. I wonder if she was like me, thinking she still had the rest of her life ahead of her to explore all there is to do and experience out of a life, only to be taken so young. It’s been on my thoughts often.
So on THAT note, I think that I want to try to live from here on out with no regrets. Live like any day could be my last day. Try to face fears, and accomplish goals and set new ones – higher ones! I am off to a good start, heading off to Paris in 5 days, a decade long dream!
My Dad gave me a card that sings for my birthday. At first I found it a little silly that there was a Tim McGraw song in it (didn’t expect his music to be in cards lol) but when I got listening to the little sound clip, the song seemed to resonate with me! So here are the full lyrics. Here’s to my next 30 years!!
My Next Thirty Years – Tim McGraw
I think I’ll take a moment, celebrate my age
The ending of an era and the turning of a page
Now it’s time to focus in on where I go from here
Lord have mercy on my next thirty years
Hey my next thirty years I’m gonna have some fun
Try to forget about all the crazy things I’ve done
Maybe now I’ve conquered all my adolescent fears
And I’ll do it better in my next thirty years
My next thirty years I’m gonna settle all the scores
Cry a little less, laugh a little more
Find a world of happiness without the hate and fear
Figure out just what I’m doing here In my next thirty years
Oh my next thirty years, I’m gonna watch my weight
Eat a few more salads and not stay up so late
Drink a little lemonade and not so many beers
Maybe I’ll remember my next thirty years
My next thirty years will be the best years of my life
Raise a little family and hang out with my wife
Spend precious moments with the ones that I hold dear
Make up for lost time here, in my next thirty years
In my next thirty years
Tuesday - 16 / 10 / 2012