The Circus Can Wait!

“Oh My Goooooddd!! I am going to run away with the circus!!!!!”

This is something you might overhear me saying on multiple occasions throughout the day with my children as they are trying my patience, and shaking  my head all the while.

Before I go any further, I am not looking for pity and I am not looking for judgement or advice. I just think I need to vent and know that I am not alone!

I love my 2 kidlets, please don’t get me wrong. But there are times, and they happen often enough, when all I really really want to do, is run away. Run away to a place where there is no fighting, no screaming, no “Mommmmmmy” 1000 times an hour. I can’t be the only Mom (or Dad!) out there thinking this can I? I seriously hope not!

For the most part, I have 2 pretty behaved little people. Problem I find is not really even with my kids. It is probably all me. I am a multi-tasker. My days are filled with being a Mommy, working from home, doing OVM, being a friend, a wife, a cook, a cleaner, a candle stick maker – ok, not that last one…..and also trying to be my own person somewhere thrown in there. The problem is that there are only 24 hours in a day, and I am really only awake for about 17 of those hours and there is always so much to get done in that time!

I find that I loose my patience the most when I am trying to do more than 1 or 2 things at a time and my children are awake. This is where I have noticed that it is probably all me (most of the time anyways, sometimes I give my kids 100% of my attention and I still incur the craziness!). If I can stop and just ‘be’ in that moment – put down the phone or my cell, close the computer, put down a knife or spatula, etc etc etc – then I can see that my kids just want me….all of me!

They aren’t trying to drive me nuts. (Well sometimes I think they are but who didn’t try to drive your parents nuts when you were a kid!?) They just want me to ‘see’ them and ‘be’ there with them.

Then again, there are times when they are driving me nuts cause they are fighting with one another, or this one took something from that one, or they are just in a downright grumpy mood, or are not listening or…or…the list could go on. But I would say that about 60% of the time my patience escapes me, it is probably my own doing.

So for that reason, I don’t actually think I will ever run away with the circus…..to a spa or beach or Paris with Johnny Depp – maybe! But likely never the circus! lol

Please tell me I am not alone here!? Annnnnd…..GO!!

Crystal

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